NUA-ING

I hate nua-ing at home, have you ever had the feeling of staying at home whole day sleeping like mad and waking up with a headache? CAUSE THAT HAPPEN TO ME TODAY. and seriously it sucks like crazy. Sleeping too much = headache, sleep with hair wet = headache, never sleep= headache. WTH! I think I can get the Sleep-too-much award.

And yes, I felt super pissed off in the afternoon, really sian ttm. it sucks even more when no one knows about it and you really want to share it with someone hopping he or she would understand and listen but no, apparently, today when I really needed someone, I can't find anyone. not a single soul. I feel so empty at times, no one would listen. And just because I keep quiet doesn't mean that I feel hurt. when I am hurt, and I would fake a smile to show that I'm strong, I don't know why, but i react that way. I wish there would be someone telling me; "Hey, I KNOW something HAPPEN to you, I could see it IN YOUR EYES, don't deny it, I know something is bothering you" But none. no one. And then I prayed, and I cried.

Today I learnt something:"Human disappoint, But God won't ever disappoint you"

And I instantly feel better.

and yeap, it's 1015pm right now. I want to watch tv and sleep now. But before I end, I would like to say sorry to that one guy.

I'm sorry if I sort of lose my temper with you, I'm feeling pissed off and I vented my anger on you. I know it has been taxing on you, but you did not even blame me but even try your best to comfort me by dropping me an email about what a wonderful girlfriend I am, though I very much doubt that I am a good one. I'm sorry for the actions and the words that hurt you, showing that I'm 不耐烦 when talking to you, though you weren't the one who instil that feeling on me. :(( -I still love you-

1021pm, bye guys.