Just some thoughts at night

While

some are sleeping,

some are on social networking pages,

most are studying,

I'm here, on blogger, blogging.

on a cold lonely night, where all my thoughts and imaginations come and go wild.

Life, is a little stagnant actually. It's like everything just slows down. Then again, it seems like everything is going too fast. Living in such a world, it's a little hard to adjust. Sometimes, no matter how busy we are, take out at least 15min of your time, to just slow down, and reflect. Constant reflections helps to shape up your characters and adjust your thoughts. Not only that, reflections help to cherish the people and things around us, no matter how small or big they may be.

For the first two weeks of 2011, I learnt that, not everything you plan, will go your way. There will always be obstacles, barriers that will block your way. At first, I kinda just lost my cool. It's so not me to just plans events and actually having that desire to actually execute it. But thanks to Darling, telling me that even when things don't goes the way you wanted, giving up is not an option. Because giving up means you lost, and he knows that I hate losing. So here I am, continue to try my best, to plan. But with a heart of not expecting a lot. It would be better that way I guess.

Disappointments, is another thing that is bugging me. I feel bad whenever I could not go for events because I have other things to do, causing people to feel disappointed in me. Maybe because they don't understand my priorities in life. Everyone else's priorities are different, even if I wanted to go, I can't because I'm bounded by it. Never ever bargain with God about time, because if you truly love him, you are SUPPOSE to devote all your time for him isn't it? Sometimes, people just need to understand. But I guess it's kinda hard isn't it?

It's been so long since I've ever typed such a long post :) Be contented. And I seriously need to stop saying stuff such as "oh my goodness" or anything related to it. I can't sin. It's going to be hard, but I am going to try my best! GO HELEN! YOU CAN DO IT!!!