Hey peeeps! :D I'm sort of like abandoning my blog for so long so now it's like time to revive it, and I totally feel like typing out a blog post today because I was read my archives and I realized that well, I blog less frequently and thus yours truly decided to try her very best to blog everyday.
When I first started out blogging, it was because it was a "in" thing, I mean, EVERYONE has one, and well, I was like "why not?" www.unfair-w0rld.blogspot.com was like my first URL(and it's still there apparently) and I'm like still surprised that people still used that URL to get into this blog(up-to-date). Unfair world indeed, I used to think why am I not as pretty as other girls, why am I so tanned, Why can't I have both looks and brains. Self esteem issues is so problematic at that point of time, YES, I used to have suicidal thoughts. I mean...WHO DOESN'T ? But then after someone who enlightened me to look things at another view, I began to try to build up that confidence. and guess what, it works. And I'm so thankful to that person, that person is none other than my mum :)
Blogging is like another platform to say out my thoughts, it's like 60% of the true me is here. And no, I don't trust people enough to tell them how I feel deep inside. Even towards to my parents or boyfriend, I'm not that truthful either. They know it too. Maybe its just that I'm afraid of getting hurt, that's why I would keep my personal thoughts to myself.
Updates about my life right now:
No more attachment, now is like studying again, it feels so weird to study all over again. And after attachment, it makes me feel appreciative that I can study. It is so much better to study than to do attachment actually. Wonder if it's the same for working lifestyle. I am so going to work and study smart but at the same time play a little. LOL!
Boyfriend is still in NS, and he transferred to another department which is like siannnnn, because it means he has to learn all over again. And I'm like still waiting for his call. Next week would be our 25th monthsary already. Been sucha long time already. Hope that it will stay this way. Tired of dating other guys and trying to guess. Feel like settling down already, but I guess it's still too early? :/
Lastly, I am having a fever now and it sucks, 38.2 degrees. And yes, im blogging at this late hour when I ought to be sleeping and getting ready for classes tomorrow. Not going to see a doc till tomorrow night. Hope I can last.
Anyway, nights, Another long long long entry. Hope you guys like it! ;) TEEHEE!
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