I almost do

Sometimes, when I look out at the window, or walking home, just because I want to getaway from all my books or friends, or just wanting to be alone. I would always caught myself thinking of you. You were a jerk, someone whom I thought I would end up with, I never thought that I would give you up, but I did. I didn't end up with you. I don't need all this stuff coming in. 

But no matter how much I tried to keep myself busy, to keep on doing things, somehow whenever I am alone, my thoughts would come back to you. I no longer cry, nor do I get angry, nor disappointed. But somehow there is this urge in my heart, to want to see you, to know what you are doing and such even though it's none of my business. But I cannot do that. It's beyond me. 

I don't know if I still love you, but I know that once it's gone. It's gone forever. My side of promises, I told you before, I would keep it. To never ever turn back, no matter what. To never ever have any more forms of communications, because it's over between us. The next time we cross paths, we are strangers, and we do not acknowledge each other. 

And I just want to tell you

It takes everything in me not to call you

And I wish I could run to you

And I hope you know that

Everytime I don’t,

I almost do, I almost do

- Taylor swift ( I almost do )