Rare moment when I am trying to sleep early, but ended up blogging here again. guess this is one of the rare moments when I have so much to think about....
was looking at all the confessions page on facebook(NTU, SMU, NUS, SIM, NYP), reading them out of curiosity and such. Guess I am not the only one reading. The people who posted are damn brave. Though it's anonymous, but with the style of writing, sometimes even close friends know what they meant. Was reading and reading, and sometimes, I realised that although the generation now and last time (my parents gen) have a lot of differences, but they do have some things in common (most of them)
Example would be on friends, like how everyone wishes to have at least 1-2 friends that they could be comfortable with, those that don't need to meet up every week etc, yet when they do meet up, there is never ending topics. There is no need to be polite with one another, and thoughts can just flow freely. There is no such thing as high maintenance on friendship, just the usual two, grab some food and a spot and talk the whole night away.
Exam stress, like how when it's critical moment and most of the students are playing etc, instead of really hardcore studying. Like me right now =.=''' studying little by little, but apparently, the critical moment starts like 2 days before the exams and chiong-ing profusely right now, but still have time to blog at midnight, knowing that I have to get up in another 3-4hrs time.
Love. Sometimes it's damn irritating, like how guys got friendzoned by girls though it's stupid to see how they chase after a girl whom they know that they would never stand a chance with. Those are the super ask-for-it type yet they don't know why it happens. =.=''' and some are talking about losing it when they feeling like it, while the majority prefer after marriage (thank God I'm not the only one who feels this way). And talking about crushes and break-ups gone wrong, and players and much more.... really opened my eyes about the way some people feel that it's okay to have more than 1 partners. Screwed mentality seriously.
Lets just hope and pray that my next partner would know how to treat me right. :x Sometimes, I wonder if there is really someone out there suited for me..... looking at the stars outside few hrs ago, thinking on how big the world is, and seeing how the creator creates all of this, makes me feel so small, and abit useless. Like how easy to just take me away when the time comes. Feeling so small and helpless, yet I have a big God who would even remember me, all my insecurities and problems, and loving me still the same, makes me feel comforted and blessed at the same time.
Though I made mistakes along the way, and at times, turning my back on Him. But he would always be there to welcome me with open arms whenever I turned back. Yes, there are punishments and sufferings, but He made it easier with His promises to never forsake, and go through it with us. Seeking refuge in Him for now.... asking so many questions, and thinking about my problems, and praying for wisdom to make the right choices and decision.
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