Something wonderful

Had a chat with someone who sort of stayed in my past, somewhere I don't want to touch at all. Everyone has secrets, that not even a single soul know. I do have mine too.... And no, I don't want to talk about it because what's past is past and I just want to concentrate on what's more important right now.

Was working as usual, and I was taking a break from the overwhelming workload and started continuing to delete my photos. Trying to hold my emotions in, and looking at the photos, remembering the memories and what has become now is totally two different emotions. People change, find faults, have serious arguments and left. What's left are these useless photos that doesn't even mean a thing.

And then you came in. I was initially shocked when I saw the facebook message. Of all the people, I would have never imagine that I would be talking to you right here. And of course, seeing the message, brings all the memories even closer to me. You asked if I am okay, and that I've been through the worst, being happy for me and all.

I said I am happy right now. because honestly, I was quite devastated, lost, heartbroken, unsure of myself and I wish to have never ever see him or anyone who would bring an image of him to my mind. I keep my distance, even deleted all the messages that he sent after we were over. Doing everything I can to protect myself and keep the walls high. At one time, so high that I felt empty. Until I let it all go, during a 2d1n in batam. I felt pathetic, crying like this.

but after a while, I gathered all my courage, had a big change, makeover, throw most of my clothes away and spend loads of money buying new ones, decorating my room, buying a new comp. Making new friends, joining new CCAs, started dating again, going out with different people, hanging out with cousins and friends etc. And now, I most prolly going to find someone who Godly, loves and cherish me, and would try his best to never hurt me. He won't promise me tears and sadness, but he would be there for me whenever I need it. And... I think I found it :)

I am happier than who I was 1 year ago.
http://last-interlude.blogspot.sg/2012/05/everything-is-just-gonna-be-alright.html
http://last-interlude.blogspot.sg/2012/05/heartbroken.html
http://last-interlude.blogspot.sg/2012/08/blog-post.html

Some of the blog post I've found sometime around this year. compared to last year? Yes, I was much more happier now than ever. Trying hard to be happy, looking at all the small things that makes me happy. Because the small things now are the next big things that matters to me. I might not be as optimistic or positive person, but at least I'm trying hard to be.

To the person that I talked to during the whole of my late afternoon, thanks. It's nice to know that there is some hope...even though he's damn screwed up, but at least there are people surrounding him that's isn't.