Yups, something happen, I came to school, and was quiet 3/4 of the day. It was so bad seriously...I can't take it. Just kept quiet because I don't want to scold or be a bitch and say the F word. I'm trying to exercise self-control, thank God I did it. I managed to calm down. Just that my actions wasn't that convincing.
Running and avoiding, that's what I do. Boyfriend says that running away won't solve the problem. I know, deep down I know that too. But I can't help it. It's either I feel "wei qu" and just keep quiet or I will cry on nights like this. And I won't want to tell others how I feel, because sadness or the feeling of exposing your feelings to others is dangerous. Letting people know the way I think and do is dangerous. It's never ever safe. I learnt that long ago. Maybe that's why I'm never truthful to the people around me. Even as I am blogging now, I am not exposing 100% of my feelings here.
No matter how stressful I am now, I know that the Lord will carry me through. He will never ever give me something that I can't manage.
Breakthrough moment.
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