I don't think I can take it anymore, everyday I go home battered, wounded, tears keep on flowing through and I felt so foolish to be affected by it. But maybe because I cared too much, I cared till I can't just let it go. My heart hurts so much everyday, there is something in my throat not letting me speak.
God, I just promise that I will not crumble under pressure. But I think, I just did. Please fix me. I feel so broken and unloved in school. I just wish people would pay more attention to me. I wish that there would not be any peer pressure or any problem. God, it's just so hard. I don't know why it happened, what to learn from it. But God, no matter what, I still want to praise you. I still want to overcome it, just that I need more strength. I need you even more than ever. It's just another 18days. I just want to get through it. No matter how bad the circumstances are.
God, I need wisdom too. My grades are too demoralizing already. I need to buck up, I need to buck up. No matter what God. No matter what, I still need you. I don't know what to do anymore. It's like memorizing the same old thing but I just can't get it.
I know that you will never forsake me no matter what.
I know that your love endures forever.
As long as I have that faith of a mustard seed, I can move mountains.
God, humble me.
