So many things has happened to me recently, and it was more bad than good. I don't know how it actually accumulate till this much. It's like a total slap across my face and it hurts so much. And through all this mini encounters that I've had in life, it taught me to be less trusting towards people.
I used to trust, count on people a lot, but maybe people just used towards their advantage and I became the victim. I don't know why this had happen, or how it happened. Because people just refused to give me an explanation and sort things out and make it right again. I can never know what's on their mind anymore. It like seriously!??!
I am only human. I don't know why do I need to go through all these drama and emotional turmoil. I just want to be happy, is it that hard? To just smile and live life peacefully? Wanted to find at least one or two happy things to remind myself that I am happy, but I can't even find any. Or is it just me?
All I want is someone to just sit beside me, not talking, for the rest of the day. That's all I want. That's all I really need.
Such a pity that I've not found him/her.
My life is never a smooth one. Never perfect. Change, I need to change. I don't want to continue this way anymore. Maybe I should be serious for once in my life.
