National Day as well as monthsary, didn't get to celebrate cause we quarreled. Not going to see u till 26, which is another 17days more. less than 3 weeks. Today, I occupied myself with watching running man, wanted to switch off my phone so that I would not need to keep on constantly looking at my phone, sleeping and not having lunch again.
I need something to occupy me, because my mind is full of u, I don't know how long is this going to last, my heart hurts alot.
I wonder how you feel right now, do u feel the way I do right now? dying to see me, but letting your pride get into your way and not seeing me and rather do something else to keep you busy? I don't know really. I want to know how you feel, I hope you are as miserable as me. Because my heart aches and dying to see you, I wish things were the same as before, but I know that if I have the chance, I would still make the same decision.
Monthsary, no longer hold the same meaning for me anymore. I used to thought that you liked celebrating with me, it's another day that we spent with each other together. At least there is just you and me and no one else. when u told me it's because I wanted it and you go along with me, it pisses me off. Knowingly, you seemed to enjoy it more than I do. Saying all these to make my heart pain, or making it as a reminder that you are not supposed to see me.
I don't know whether I want you anymore.
