It's feels like forever since I've last seen your face. I don't want to see your face in pictures, I want to see them in person. But the face that I knew now, is the ugliest that I've seen. And it used to be the one that I would looked forward to every start of a new day.
Now, your lips, belongs to her. Your heart is hers. Not mine to keep any more. My heart? still with you. trying to free itself from you. I don't know how to get away from you. But I would want to, no matter how much I loveD you. My heart hurts, but I need to move on, just a bit more, endurance is the key.
tonight, is the last night that I am going to rant about you. because from tomorrow onwards, I won't need to whine any more. I should grow out of it. I need another change, to love myself more, to start thinking for myself, I hate how much I would treat other people well, but I don't treat myself well.
heartbreak, heartpains, they should be gone by now. I totally forgotten your number till it sort of resurface a few days ago, though as usual, I don't get it and can't really hear. but oh well. I am not going to wish you well. I am not that strong yet. But I will be in the near future.
Right now, I need to get very very busy. I got like church camps, bible challenge, uni applications/admission procedures, Christmas dance, Thailand trip and such. And I hope that school would start very soon. It would be damn boring without books and too much thoughts of you. I need my life on track.
life without you is hard, I hope that time will heal all wounds, I hope and sincerely pray that I would not need to see you any more. I would really wish that my life doesn't revolve around you any more. I should wake up the idea that you ain't mine any more.
I made a ring. for myself. to tell myself that I belong to God, and the next partner I find, will be a man after God's heart, able to accept this ring of mine, and to tell me that he would love God more than he would ever love me. Because a love like that, is a love worth waiting for a lifetime.
your love is cheap, mine ain't. I am not like you, to go into the embrace of another girl so easily, to break my heart and humiliated me like I ain't nothing but a fling for 3years. You broke mine, I hope that God would break yours.
Make myself feel happy, is a choice, I have to climb up. Because life goes on without you. I will get over you. Tonight, with 30min left. Bye Clement. you used to be one of the most important person in my life, but now you are the only one that I wish to run away from. Tonight will be the last time I'm crying over you. Because from tomorrow onwards, my life will change. And it will constantly be changing. you can't be there for me any more. I would never let you enter my life any more. No matter how sweet your words and how much sincerity I thought I seen in your eyes. You are the most dangerous guy in my life right now. I won't let you in into my guarded heart.
