aftermath of a break up

So, after I broke up, must have what happened after that right? :D

To tell the truth, I feel so much more happier than when I was with him. Maybe because losing one boyfriend means that I've got more friends to talk to, to stay up and catch up, can feel how my family supported my every single decision as well as (the most impt) able to serve God better. No more distractions, whether to quit my ministry in order to spend more time with him and such. No more painful decisions to make! :D

Before my youth pastor and I wanted to see how we can solve the problem, she prayed together with me to ask God for guidance, as well as to find out what is his true colours and such, if it is of His will that he would show me.

Months passed, and I finally seen his true colours. Thank God for that, I cannot imagine myself with this guy for the next few hours even. I don't even see anything coming from us any more. Neither had I seen with my own eyes what a scary guy he is. suddenly, breaking up is the right and the best decision that I've ever made in this situation.

Went for the BGR talk at SAC yesterday, and made me realized what a godly relationship is and what is an ungodly relationship means. I believe my God love me so much, that HE thinks that he is not a suitable guy for me, and thus ending it. Therefore, I will follow what my daddy says and first fix my eyes and foundation in God before finding a guy who is able to Honour, love and fear God and able to complement me as well as helping me grow in God.

Trusting that God will provide a better one for me, when I am suitable of age. Thank you Lord, for all that you have done for me. For not letting me fall, for always being there when I am sad, for placing people to give me the right suggestions and giving me the freedom of choice. I want all of my choices to be good in your eyes, as well as all my actions would please you.

For now, I have to forget about us and think about just me and myself. Because you don't appear in my life any more. I have to take steps to forget you, because thinking about you hurts me. and letting go to is tough, but holding on, is more painful. I deserve the best, and you don't deserve me at all. People say your life is going to be tough, I hope that God would bless your soul and have mercy on you. Repent while you still have the chance. Because I don't want to see how bad you are going to end up. But then again, I might. Because then again, you seriously deserved it. I want to see how God is going to punish you, and what a righteous God he is.